About time

Posted on August 18, 2014. Filed under: meditation | Tags: , , , , , , |

Hello again! It has been over a year since I have written a post but I thought now was a good time to start again.

Again, just as I did when I started this blog over a year ago; I find myself at a new starting line. I have just moved from Delaware to St. Louis, Missouri with my long time boyfriend to finally start “my new life.” I have dreams for this “new life.” Dreams of finding my perfect job; a job that fulfills me and uses my talents to fulfill others. I have dreams about becoming engaged and married, about purchasing a house in a nice neighborhood, about having a group of girlfriends to go to happy hours and shopping with, dreams about joining a book club, joining a running and triathlon club and dreams about finally learning how to knit.

Except the thing is, I don’t want these things to be dreams. I want them to happen NOW. Yes, just like the kid throwing a tantrum that wants the candy bar in the checkout line. I have been throwing temper tantrums in my mind– why aren’t all these great things happening?!

Time, that’s why. I was recently out to dinner with a couple of friends, and upon lamenting my woes of my stall in life, a friend said, “I predict that in 5 years you will have everything you want.” And she is right and wrong at the same time.

In five years I am sure I will have many of the things I am constantly wishing for now. However, I have plenty to be thankful for in THIS moment and to be constantly wishing for more results in denying myself the pleasure of fully participating in and appreciating THIS time in my life.

I have just moved to a new city and do not have family here but there is such a thing called technology- my family in Ohio is only a phone call, a text, a Skype date, or even a Facebook post away and I am blessed to be able to easily hop in my car and visit in person. I do not have stable friend group but this gives me the opportunity to meet new people and form deeper bonds with my boyfriend’s family and the friends I do have here. I am not engaged but this does not stop my relationship from continuing to grow, it does not stop us from continuing to learn from each other and love one another. I do not have a home of my own but have been given the opportunity to save for a future home. I do not have a job yet but this gives me time to finally read all those books I have been toting in boxes from new place to new place, time to explore clubs and opportunities in my new city and yes, time to perhaps finally learn to knit. I may not have everything I want but I do have everything I need right now.

Most nights, before falling asleep, I say the Serenity Prayer. In saying this prayer there are two phrases that really speak to this time in my life, “living one day at a time, enjoying one moment at a time.” It’s about time I did just that.

Live vigorously,
Ang

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if it is to be, it is up to me

Posted on March 9, 2013. Filed under: goals, health, motivation, wellness | Tags: , , , , , , |

How often do you set your alarm a little earlier with the intension of hitting the gym, only to reset it to your normal wake-up time? Or get caught up in the business of your life and let your health and fitness goals collect dust? Yes, I think we have all been there. I am there now.

To fill you in; I have just moved from OH to DE for my first job as a physical therapist. I have always had a love and passion for fitness and nutrition, but found my passion faltering as I adjusted to my new life. The business, lack of funds, and well, loneliness of moving and starting a new life in an unfamiliar place got the best of me.

I was missing my routine. I didn’t have a workout buddy. I wasn’t making a paycheck yet so didn’t have the liberty to motivate myself with races. I didn’t have a gym to start swim training for tris, pump metal to ready my body for long bike rides, or absorb the enthusiasm from other like-minded people.

I was in a self-diagnosed fitness rut and found it difficult to dig myself out.

But, as my boyfriend says, fitness is physics. A body in motion stays in motion. And a body in rest stays in rest. I have goals I want to accomplish this year and they won’t happen if I stay in rest. Namely, complete a half-ironman (I have done several olympic tris) and Boston Qualify at the Columbus OH marathon in October (I was 4min behind last year). These goals will not be accomplished if I don’t get my mind and body working together to conquer them.

So, I decided to start back with the basics. I reminded myself I didn’t need a gym membership or special equipment to conquer my goals. And yes, while I appreciate and feed off of others training with me, if I wasn’t dedicated to training on my own, I sure as heck am not going to meet my goals. Because at the start line, I am left with my own preparation.

So what did I do? I went back to the basics.

I made the outdoors my gym by lacing up my running shoes and hitting the pavement. I found a park and after a run would do tricep dips and elevated pushups off of picnic tables. I invested in in-expensive fitness items to do home-workouts. I purchased a physioball, found my old jump rope and therabands, and gathered heavier objects around the house (ie gallon jugs filled with water/paint cans) to use for squats and other body weight exercises. I got out my old fitness magazine workouts I ripped out and stored away and I searched my fitness section on Pinterest and actually put these workouts to the test. I found websites that offered free videos like Youtube yoga videos or high intensity interval training videos from http://www.bodyrock.tv. Then I USED them.

Using our resources; that’s the key. We can’t live vigorous lives by waiting for our lives to move us; we have to do the moving. Whether it is a fitness, work, or other extra-curricular goal; it won’t get accomplished if we are not able to motivate ourselves to get after it.

Whenever I lack in motivation, my grandpa’s motto comes to mind, ten 2 letter words to live by: If it is to be, it is up to me. I WILL train and conquer a half-ironman this year.

What will you do?

Live vigorously,
Ang

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